Then you look to the Dark Ages when we took three steps backward to every one forward.

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I can't help but feel we're looking at the death of innovation with this puritanical, political nonsense taking place.

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Yoga helps. That and a pragmatic streak ten miles wide. :)

The "no homo" thing is both interesting and depressing because guys from my (likely our) generation are particularly infected with that stigma. (I never really got it, myself and always found it silly)

It's definitely a "thing" though.

Life also has a habit of dragging us into different directions. Wives. Families. Businesses. So hard to find a common ground over time. Particularly when you multiply geographic distance with a number of years.

We have such a diversity of systems, versions and platforms in place that someone without 30+ years of experience simply couldn't "grok" them all.

We go all the way back to 1979

People who can hit the ground running with that cost far more money than we have to pay.

This means I have to be there and also intensively train which is something I can ill afford to do time-wise.

I'm trying to get things current to the point a fresh grad can handle most things and leave me for the things they won't be able to handle but it takes time. Especially when my attention is drawn more to day-to-day things than hard coding.

It's quite the pickle.

Just bemoaning the position I find myself in. A lot of the ideas I have do not fit the company I suddenly inherited. Perhaps some day I can squeeze them in.

What's funny is I feared a commitment to this place the second they offered a six month contract to me 17 years ago, It's like I knew.

Once I gave in and said, "Yes, I will work full time", and caught the dynamics of what was going on there and realized I was the only one qualified to guide the place, I knew I was screwed.

They had an extremely talented guy there that everyone expected to take things over but I saw his weaknesses instantly and knew the CEO did too.

To be honest, I felt tricked.

Unfortunately, they became like a second family over time and I am stuck here.

Just hoping that I can turn what was tossed onto my shoulders into a means to do something interesting before I am too old.

That's something that would prompt a nature vs nurture argument for the ages.

It does suck. It sucks worse when you find yourself in the position of being the employer.

I foresaw it happening and tried to weasel my way out of it but to no avail.

Perhaps I will be able to pull something off the back burner, idea-wise.

Their CPA and lawyer are going to have to deal with the underpaid payroll taxes.

What depresses me is the ideas I have in the shower in the AM coupled with the knowledge I will never have the time or energy to do anything with them.