Just bemoaning the position I find myself in. A lot of the ideas I have do not fit the company I suddenly inherited. Perhaps some day I can squeeze them in.

What's funny is I feared a commitment to this place the second they offered a six month contract to me 17 years ago, It's like I knew.

Once I gave in and said, "Yes, I will work full time", and caught the dynamics of what was going on there and realized I was the only one qualified to guide the place, I knew I was screwed.

They had an extremely talented guy there that everyone expected to take things over but I saw his weaknesses instantly and knew the CEO did too.

To be honest, I felt tricked.

Unfortunately, they became like a second family over time and I am stuck here.

Just hoping that I can turn what was tossed onto my shoulders into a means to do something interesting before I am too old.